So Here's The News

I was reading back on some of my blog posts and realized that I have been lying to you. Yes, lying. Isn't that just horrible? Well the truth is currently I'm lying to just about everyone in my life and right now anyone who is reading this blog gets to hear about it first probably because I'm almost 100% certain that no one reads this blog. You've probably already read the previous post. If not, that's totally cool and you can read it after this. That post was something I wish I was doing right now. None of my friends, family, or anyone else know this right now but I'm gay. I like girls. Am I okay with that? I don't  know. It's not easy to be gay and I know that but really, I don't mind liking girls. I have no issue with it.  Really the only issue with it is that other people have an issue with it. They're the people who are keeping me from coming out. Even though I know and trust my parents and friends, I'm still scared of what they might say. For anyone reading this post, thanks for listening I really just needed a place to vent.

Lost Words

Kiara looked Isabelle in the eye. She had made her decision. She wasn't sure when she made it or what had changed her mind but she was sure about it. Still, she couldn't stop her heart rate  accelerating or her breathing getting shallower in anticipation. Kiara was nearly 100% sure about what Isabelle's reaction would be and it would be a good one she was sure but at the same time there was a small doubt creeping that she would be wrong and that Isabelle would never speak to her again. Isabelle narrowed her eyes as Kiara struggled with her words. Kiara had planned them earlier. Really it wasn't a hard script at all but she was still afraid it would come out wrong. If anyone could mess up to measly words it would be her. Isabelle opened her mouth to speak, probably to ask what Kiara had planned to say but before the words could come out, 

"I'm gay."

Slowly Losing My Mind

Have summer job. It's an okay job. Not too hard and sometimes it even borders on fun. Still, there are times when I wish I was at school. Yes, at school. This job is the kind of job where either I'm busy as hell or I'm doing nothing. When I am doing nothing, my brain begins to melt. If you were here, you would probably be grossed out by the gray liquid dripping out of my ears.

I can't wait till I'm done working, the day after tomorrow. Yeah, so it's not that long left. But, when it's over summer can finally, truly begin. Can't wait.

What will I be doing? Probably just sitting in my room with my best friend. His name is MacBook Pro. Yeah, no life but if you're reading this, you don't really have one either. (I am positive I wrote this somewhere before...hmmmm...whatever it's still true.)

Can't wait to be lazy.

For those who actually read this blog...

So I haven't posted in a while. Summer vacation has started so I can begin posting more often now and I will have more ideas because interesting things will happen. Anyway, this is just a random post. I know that no one reads this blog so I am essentially talking to myself but if anyone does read this blog, I have to ask you something.

Are you  sane? I'm pretty sure you have better things to be doing like washing toilets or cleaning up puke.
If you think this is the most interesting thing out there you are probably a weirdo but that's okay. As long as they don't try to kill me, I like weirdos. They always have awesome ideas.

Oh, and if you came here by accident and are never going to come again, I sincerely apologize for having wasted your time.

Awesome Math Teacher...

This was on our math HW today. No joke!!!

Not scared Anymore

So my teacher didn't do anything and the class was very fun. I'm a little calmer now. Yes, I know that I'm paranoid but this teacher gives me the creeps. He's the kind of teacher that would put 1+1 on a Calculus final. Everyone would assume that it's a trick question and no one would actually write 2 as the answer and everyone will fail. He's not a math teacher though. Anyway, today was a good day so I'm happy. I got an A- on a paper so I'm actually really happy.

I'm scared

My World Literature teacher didn't give me homework today...


Yeah, most people wouldn't be bothered by this statement but he's the kind of teacher who is always planning something. Call me paranoid or whatever but if you knew him...

Even worse, it's parent's day tomorrow. That means that everyone's parents will be in the class. He already plans on giving us our essays back (I know I failed and I won't be able to hide it from my mom!!!) What other torture does he have planned????? I'll post with an update tomorrow. If I don't post it's because my mother has killed me in an attempt to save the family name. Of course, why does she need me... My sister is enough.


Wish me luck. *Tentative smile before dissolving into tears*